its wrong to say ilu.

okay, hari ini hari yang cukup.

cukup menyenangkan, melelahkan, menjemukan, membingungkan, menghibur sekaligus menyedihkan.

hari ini gua edw sama kelvin -lagi lagi- nonton bertiga. kali ini ice age yg udah lama gua idam2kan akhirnya ketonton juga! well, it was a great film. stupid, absurd, but fun enough. terus abis ntn, lanjut ke menteng sama Asep dan Hans. makan, ngobrol2, bercanda, ketawa sana sini.

diluar sih ketawa, keliatannya ga ada yg dipikirin, ga ada yg bikin gua sedih lagi, seems like everything's fine. but still.. nobody has no idea what i keep inside, right?
sniff. how can i cut this weird little feeling? how can i pretend behind this fvcking smile a bit longer? how can i stop to fall everytime i see those big glasses eyes?

well, it hurt so much inside and i know im just too weak to keep falling in love with him. okay, its not well. i keep telling my self i can get over it but i've forgotten how to be strong and im about losing my mind soon, man. damn it.

oh Lord, please throw away this bad bad feeling out of me. i just can't hold it anymore :(